Monday, September 12, 2011
the more you get caught up with work, the lesser you recognize yourself. i hate it that i've unwittingly become so self centered. but seriously when you dont have enough time, all you're preoccupied with is how to get work done, how to relieve stress and how to look good despite being swamped with work. so that doesn't leave you with much time left. and i can already envisage myself as a screamer when i reach higher level positions. well at least i'll scream and then feel guilty and treat my minions to lunch or something. now i really admire all those kind, patient lawyers. seriously, i think its almost impossible. i mean when you're already so highly strung, mistakes and incompetence is really annoying. and annoying things in life get more annoying. for example, an annoying person now becomes unbearable because why would you want to spend the 1 day of freedom dealing with them, when you could have gotten a massage or something. which brings me to the point of being a bad person.
sigh, i will endeavor to be a nicer person. i try ok. if life is already so unbearable, how do people even find the time to get married, let alone date? SDN is so gonna have to tackle worklife balance first.
